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[takecourage]

Mostly, what she does is stare. She holds Edie in her arms and she feeds her or she sleeps and she just...stares at her. Mostly, she's trying to figure out how something so utterly perfect can have come from her. Danny, she can believe it of, but her? What she do to deserve something like this. A few days after Edie is born, Alex lets Danny start texting people, letting them know that they can come and visit, if they want to. She installs herself in the sunroom with Edie wrapped in a blanket in her arms and she rocks, slowly, and she feels, for the first time in her life, like she's something entirely new.

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[takecourage]

"You don't know the half of it, Hop," she says. And it's true - he doesn't. Nobody but Danny does, really. Danny and all of her ghosts. "The way I get through it is that I remind myself that, sometimes, second chances happen, even when you don't really deserve them."

[something_incredible]

It's not the reality of second chances Hopper struggles with, but the rest of what she's said. The deserving of them. He knows he's had a second chance, a third one even, here in Darrow with Beverly and Eleven, and sometimes even those idiot boys who seem to need him every now and then. But he doesn't deserve them and they deserve better than him.

He just smiles and leans in to get a better look at the baby. "Pretty good second chance," he says.

[takecourage]

"Yeah, she'll do, won't she," says Alex, skimming her hand over the soft down of Edie's dark hair. With her eyes closed like this, all Alex can see in her facial features is Danny. She thinks of that as a blessing. "You're going to be the closest thing she's got to a grandparent, you know."

[something_incredible]

"Christ, way to make me feel old," Hopper answers, even though he's not overly bothered by it. "I'm only forty-five, give a guy a break."

But that's old enough to be a grandfather, he realizes. Sara would be sixteen if she had lived, which is still way too young to have a kid in Hopper's opinion, but it would definitely be possible.

[takecourage]

"You gotta make a family where you find it, right?" says Alex, eyebrow raised, shifting as he leans in so that he can see Edie's face more clearly. "I grew up with my grandma around - I know how important it is when you're little. And you're the closest thing I've got to a dad, Hop, so..." She shrugs and then gives him a crooked smile. "Guess it's up to you."

[something_incredible]

Hopper smiles a little and gives Alex a nudge with his elbow. "I guess I can do that," he says with a heavy sigh, as if it's a huge deal. As if it isn't something he absolutely loves, despite feeling old.

"Guess I'll have to get Bev and El over here to meet her sometime soon, huh?" he asks. "If they're gonna be her aunts."

[takecourage]

"Guess she can't have too many aunts," says Alex, looking down at the little face. "Maybe I'd have turned out different if Mira hadn't been trying to keep on the straight and narrow on her own." She traces the tip of one finger against Edie's chubby cheek. "Hopefully you're not going to be the kid I deserve, huh, little girl?"