"I'm an asshole," says Alex, and she actually manages to smile a little bit, bending her head to take a drag on her cigarette. "They'd have fit right in." She rubs her nose. "I don't know, man. When I was a kid, I didn't have...shit happened, and I didn't have anyone I could tell. I tried telling Mira once or twice, but..." She shrugs. "Drugs were easier."